4 years of Memories...

... It's 12:09am and I sit here, 4 years later, at the same time that you began your journey into my life and my heart. 4 years ago, I was playing hours of Cubis and timing the contractions (even though they said they were Braxton Hicks - I knew better)... Now, I sit here typing, after checking on you, reminiscing about the addition of you in our lives.

For the last four years, you have been my heart outside my body. Your smile can bring me out of the saddest mood, your giggle can cause me to forget my crappy job, your soft arms wrapped around my body allow me to release the stress around me. When you're sick, I am worried, when you are hurt... I hurt. I never knew that I could experience life in such living color. You have brought that bold brilliance to my life, Annde, and I can't imagine living without it again.

I question whether I am doing the best job as a parent. I know that I could have stayed home with you instead of going back to work. But, I know that I made the right decision. You are thriving in your world - you're fun and social, smart and kind, exuberant and curious. You are right where you are supposed to be and I think that I am too. Someday, when I can take you to work with me, I hope you will be as proud of me as I am of you.

So, Annde - here we are... 4 years later. Thank you for letting me be your Mom! I know that I thank God today that you are my big girl. I can't wait to see what the world holds in the future for us...